I Am Me

Early one morning I sat on my bed crying and wondering if my life would ever include more than diaper changes, sleepless nights, and toddler tantrums. I had always dreamed about being a parent. For years, it was all I wanted. However, in that moment the reality of being a parent was drastically different than my expectations. I found myself comparing my present life to the life I “wanted” and to other people ‘s lives. I felt worthless, worn out and empty. An incredible friend then reminded me, that every woman is created in the image of God and has been given a variety of tasks and talents to use. However, living passionately and accepting the roles God has prepared is difficult. Being a woman is hard work, but it presents many opportunities to change the world. A proper perspective about our identities in Christ is key to viewing ourselves correctly to accomplish these tasks set before us by God.

 I Am Unique

I am unique. God created me as a unique individual. This is clearly seen in the DNA code. No other person in the world shares the same DNA code. Every hair, thought, action, and response contributes to a unique being who has been chosen by God to be part of his plan. In creation, God spoke and created the world, animals, skies etc. However, when he created man he said “… Let us make man in our own image, after our likeness: and let them have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over the cattle, and over all the earth, and over every creeping thing that creeps upon the earth. So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them” (Genesis 1:26-27). Created in the image of God, can you imagine? The God of the universe took the time to form mankind with his own hands out of the dust of the ground (Genesis 2:7). He took this kind of time because he cares deeply about who we are as unique individuals.

As a unique human being, I have a voice. Voice is a unique tool that allows me to speak truth in a way that makes sense to me but also to connect with others. It is my “mark” on the world. By using my voice to clearly articulate, I am able to stand out for his glory and honor.

Uniqueness is a tool that allows individuals to make the world a better place.

I AM Called

Perhaps one of my favorite scripture verses are Romans 8:26-30 which says “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God’s will. And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. For those God foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the likeness of his Son, that he might be the first born among many brothers, and those he predestined, he also called; those he called, he also justified; those he justified, he also glorified.” There is so much in this passage of scripture that Could be focused on, but the I wanted to focus on the “Called” portion of the passage. God calls the saints according to his purpose! He has a specific plan for every believer.

This is a great encouragement, especially if you are anything like me. I struggle to feel purpose in my life. There are days that I wonder, especially when I have done nothing else but care for my children all day, if I am really doing what God has called me to do. However, being a mother is as calling and a great responsibility. The difference is the way that I complete my calling. If I focus on my calling to follow him, then everything else in life will fall into place!

I Am Equipped

Feeling inferior… This is a huge struggle. I look around and I see every one else who is “better” at what I believe God has called me to. Being a mother is hard. I often feel like I do not have all of the tools to accomplish the tasks he sets before me, but he has equipped me. This equipping comes through his word and his Spirit which is our guide through life. My father once told me that God gave my children to me, because he wanted me to raise them and would give me the tools that I needed to do so. This is important! God calls and equips his servants to do his will. As women, we have many different roles (wife, mother, employee, employer etc) and the Spirit’s equipping is the only way that we are able accomplish the tasks that God has set before us.

My passions, education and experiences are part of how God has equipped me to accomplish his will in my life. The experiences may not be pleasant, but God allow these situations to pave the way to the future. I am equipped for the present, but God is still equipping me for the future. Each experience chisels away at the block of granite to create the person that God wants to accomplish the predetermined tasks.

Becoming better equipped spiritually involves spending time with God by reading his word, prayer and fellowship with other believers. Becoming physically, emotionally, mentally and educationally equipped may take time, but the most important concept to remember is that God doesn’t want us to wait to start doing his will. He wants us to do it now. A lack of physical, emotional, mental or educational experience doesn’t prevent a person from following God and pointing the world toward Christ.

I Am Wanted

I told my husband once that “I don’t feel wanted for anything more than what I do.” This was at least, partially, true. We had two children, an 18 month old and a 3 month old. Two under two was hard (three under three was better but still not easy), and there were days that I was ready to completely give up. I felt like my life was worthless beyond “serving” my children’s needs. This however, is the complete opposite of how much Christ wants me. There is absolutely nothing I can do to deserve his love, but he wants me. There is nothing I can do to earn his love, but he wants me anyway. Daily, I sin against him, and he still wants me. I am wanted and loved in spite of my weaknesses. He doesn’t need me at all, but the Father in Heaven, sent his son to die for me because he loves me and wants me to spend eternity with him.  Is there any love or desire greater than that? This desire for me is an incredible blessing! I can do nothing to achieve or earn this love, but it is given in abundance.

As a unique, called, equipped and wanted individual, I have the ability to show the world the creativity and passion for life that God has given me. My family, writing, story-telling, gardening etc. are all parts of who God has called me to be. I hope to be able to share those parts of myself with you in a meaningful, exciting and helpful way! Will you join me as we go through life on a mission to live an empowered and fulfilled life?